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i know, i know. its been a while. and with the way im feeling right now, i need to write and let some steam out.

well, first off. i broke up with elijah. =/
i felt so insignificant. like i was of no importance, like he didnt care in any shape or form about me. and most importantly, i felt lonely when i didnt have to. i was alone at times when i didnt HAVE to be. times where he COULDVE came, he didnt and gave me excuses. it didnt feel like a relationship i belonged in. so that was the end of the that. im into someone else anyway. haha.

it kinda hurts because it took awhile for me to realize that i had to leave and on top of that, i feel so used and so shitty when i REALLY get into deep thought about everything. i thought things would change and shit would take a 360 turn BUT i was wrong. i can only learn from my mistakes so this just adds to the list.

im into somebody WORTH being into anyway. eric. i met him i believe last november and we been cool BUT we never met face to face, thats the downfall. womp womp. our chemistry is so amazing though. we get along so beautifully, maybe cause hes a jackass like me. lmao! but im not in LALA land with him either. i dont plan on givin my heart entirely, little by little but not all at once. slowly by slowly, i think things will work out. and if i end up being wrong, then um, im going gay. LMAO. nah nah, i kid , i kid.

friends. wow. where can i begin. i found out something that put me into total shock. and i hope it REALLY REALLY DOESNT happen. i cant say it exactly, i dont wanna blow any spots up.... the people i considered "best " friends, are TOTAL strangers. im not gonna mention names either. well at least not just YET. things are bound to blow up one or another. tick, tick, BOOM. yea, just like that.

as for college.... well, thats going smoothly. im so excited about starting school.

ugh and im sick. -sniffs- i have a earache, a headache AND a runny nose. it sucks so much ASS. and with that im qone to rest. ttul.

♥ eliza