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Looking at my last post, which was almost 4 months ago -- WHOA; alot of CRAP has happened and the way I'm feeling right now, hmph, I'm gonna rant about it ALL.

First let me say that i am no longer in new jersey. But now that I'm gone, I rather be back there than here. Where is here, your probably asking. LONG story short--- after I left jersey, I ended up back in my grand mothers apartment in manhattan with my mom. Afterwards my retard of an uncle started this whole big drama and as of now I'm in my dad's with Brownie.

Second, I have cut off a majority of people off. Starting with this guy i thought I was almost like in LOVE with. Sad but true. Its true what they say folks, what looks good is always good for you. Second on my newly made shit list, is my now EX best friend brandon. why? i'll explain !

i've known that kid since elementary school. he enlisted himself into the military, the Navy to be specific. And as of May 8th he's being shipped to Italy for THREE YEARS. Apparently, he started talking to this girl we both went to school with and i think 2 weeks agos[ish] they became a thing. Now, he had 3 weeks before being shipped off, so he spent half in florida with his family and the rest here in new york. Now, i NEVER expected to see him ALL the time during his stay, but i DID expect to see him. It is now the 5th of May and I have only seen him twice. WHY? Selfishly, he's been spending all his time with her as if shes the only one that isnt gonna see him for three years. I feel its unfair. I mean i understand thats ya chick, but umm hello? other people exist too you know. another thing; his mother doesnt like me, and has never met me * straight face * well me and brandon made plans to go to the wax museum in times square and he made this "brilliant" idea to go to an art museum. I wasnt aware he or I liked art. hmm. welp, apparently brandon told his younger brother about our plans and he went to their mother and told him. out of spite, she tells brandon that all of them were now going to the wax musuem and she goes hey, u can bring ur girlfriend. never did he once tell her we had plans previously for the SAME thing. vice versa, if it wouldve been ME, i wouldve told my mom, hey i got plans already etc etc. but nah, he cant do that for me but i can defend him against my own uncle who was 10 seconds from whoopin his ass. after i found out about that, he literally DISAPPEARED for a good 3 days, which is something he never does. til one day i got tired of it and called him, i told him exactly what i needed to say, his excuse? he was busy. busy doing WHAT? her?! come on, dude. i tell'em, oh your busy? okay its all good, STAY busy. * CLICK! *

Truth be told, i think its messed up. as much as i love elijah, ( yes im still with him, but thats another story ) i wouldnt put him before brandon because he's been there first. just like i was here first before his girlfriend. its unfair. we're suppose to be best friends and you wanna just ditch people like that for somebody YOU just got with. he's become this asshole of a person. I hate when people get into a relationship and they act like nobody else exists. And thats exactly the person HE is, which is something i never thought he would be...and it hurts my feelings. i'd never do that to him, but for him to do that to me?

well that friendship is over. i refuse to stitch, glue, sew, staple, tape, it back together. i've told him to just erase my number and dont talk to me ever. was i right for doing that? who knows and who cares. i damn sure dont.

NOW as for ELIJAH's ass! SMH.
Thats another story, another night.
Good night.