Designer: Infravermelho
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i dont mean LAME, or LOSER, or LEMON, or LATHARGIC, or anything else that sounds retarded. i mean the word guys DREAD to say, females cry about and people DREAM about. im talkin about LOVE.

what is about LOVE that makes us go goo goo ga ga over somebody else? maybe its just the simple thought of being able to SAY you love someone, that draws us to it. i mean, everyone sounds SO much happier sayin "i love him" rather than, "yes, im single" , dont they? maybe its just to end all future what if's? maybe people FORCE them selves to either love someone or force them selves to say it, just to simply avoid future relationships that will just cause heart break.

is it the way she smiles or laughs that drives him crazy? or is it the way he talks, his smooth ways that makes you just admire him as soon as he walks in the door. maybe its his dimples that are so deep in his cheeks that make u say "Aww" and melt instantly. or maybe its the way she says your name that just gives you goosebumps. whatever it is, its there. whether its explainable or not.

ive been through so much relationship DRAMA that theres been times where i seriously said, something is wrong with me im gonna be alone forever. i always found a flaw right after i began to think something or someone was absolutely perfect. examples, shall we? -Ehm !

Now, there was JUSTIN who thought he was the king of the world. he thought he was better than EVERYBODY and EVERYTHING. Now even though i felt like i truely did love him, his conceitedness cut, slashed, and burned our relationship. [ OVER IN 7 MONTHS ]NEXT !

AJ. now he was my first. he showed me what it was like to be wild and carefree and at the same time careLESS. my family hated him, and my uncle beat him up. haha !
[ OVER IN 3 MONTHS ] NEXT!

MAG. He thought hustlin was a good job and he treated me like shit. Never loved him. To the point one night he got high, kicked me out his crib. Cursed him out and never seen him since ! He hits me up from time to time. Bitch. [OVER IN ONE MONTH]

HEATH. -sigh- i dont know WHAT is was about him. But this was the relationhip that changed my prospective on LOVE. from the beginning he had a girlfriend, and YES ill admit i tried to break them up, but he said he wasnt happy so it wasnt causin any harm. But...push come to shove, things happened and ended badly. He was my best friend and i cried for a good month after him. We dont talk anymore. [OVER IN 4 MONTHS]

ELIJAH- CURRENT BOYFRIEND. we have our ups and downs but this relationship is verrryyy different from the rest. maybe becuz hes older. he can be so perfect at times and then so HORRIBLE at others. i feel like i love him or i want to love him so bad but because of the jackasses above, i feel like he wont feel the same and ill get hurt...again. never underestimate the power of denial. i find myself thinkin of him more, and missin him wayy more. he's changed me in some ways and he was the only one who stayed with me thru everything my mom put me thru in the beginning. maybe thats why im so attached. everytime i wanna leave , i cant.


im so attracted to him. he has his moments where he can be so funny and silly. and others so serious. i feel safe with him, like hes always wanted to help me grow. maybe its his dimples when he does smile at me. the way he hugs me before he leaves......

is that love?